Climbed up on the rainbow Just to see if I’d fall off I’m a frosted lemon coward And I don’t know how No don’t know to hold you Without shaking No I’m not aware of how I could possibly love you Without aching Yes I give you everything Yes I give you anything I gave you everything Gotta watch myself I’ve gotta love myself And take care And so keep the light on before Ya hop into bed Cos, baby, this is the last Honest look I’ll ever give I saved up all my sunshine Just to see you more clear I’m a little short on solar And I haven’t given in No I’m going to hold you anyway And I’ll do it without shaking Yes I’ll love you always And I’ll do it without aching Yes I’d give you anything Yes I’d give you anything I gave you everything Gotta watch myself I’ve gotta love myself And take care And so keep the light on before Ya hop into bed Cos, baby, this is the last Honest look I’ll ever give I give you everything I give you anything I gave you everything Gotta watch my self I’ve gotta love myself And take care Yeah Gave you I gave you I gave you everything So I’ve gotta watch myself And love myself And take care This is your last look This is your last look This is your last look Yeah this is your last look This is your last look This is your last look And so keep the light on before Ya hop into bed Cos, baby, this is the last Honest look I’ll ever give
I have had a bit of a mix between a busy week and a week of not feeling to great, I guess a week that starts off with you being in hospital for a minor op is never setting out to be the best one. Anyway that is a lame excuse for why I have not paid much attention and love here at my tumblr page. I am off to bed now and hope that I will have a better week this week and thus will post more ramblings. I should be having the stair lift fitted on Wednesday so hopefully things are starting to get sorted to something that resembles life and organisation, thus getting back to living in the real world!
In the meantime anyone finds out where to get such a robotic seal pup please let me know, it will solve my wanting so bad for a pet and will be good for my health! Purfect!
So I was saying that I was feeling blue and in pain and generally its been a stay in bed day, but im glad I pulled myself together and got into my chair, wheeled to the louge to watch the following. I shall then do my evening physio and go back to bed. However if you have access to the Channel 4+1 or if you know how to get channel 4 on the web, watch this series.
Stephen Hawking’s Universe
Saturday 25 September 8:00pm - 9:00pm Channel 4
2/3, series 1
The effects budget is really gobbled up in tonight’s enjoyably mind-bending edition, which asks whether time travel is possible. Hawking uses billiard balls and pyramids to answer the question. But the bulk of the visuals are taken up with impressive, sometimes movie-standard CGI. The theory is tricky stuff to take on board, but the Prof is admirably clear in his explanations. Funny, too. Instead of referring to the usual dilemmas so beloved of science-fiction writers, Hawking invents his own: the ‘mad scientist paradox’. Journeying into the past, it seems, is never going to happen. But into the future? Maybe…
I love you, somehow this just gave me a total flash back to the first time I really got talking to you back at the Morrison hotel in Dublin. I don’t think either of us were that drunk at that point, I know I went on to be a bit tipsy but… ha
I want to see your face in every kindof light In fields of dawn and forests of the night And when you stand before the candles on a cake Oh, let me be the one to hear the silent wish you make What are you doing the rest of your life? North and South and East and West of your life I have only one request of your life That you spend it all with me All the seasons and the times of your days All the nickels and the dimes of your days Let the reasons and the rhymes of your days All begin and end with me I want to see your face in every kind of light In the fields of dawn and the forests of the night And when you stand before the candles on a cake Oh, let me be the one to hear the silent wish you make Those tomorrows waiting deep in your eyes In the world of love that you keep in your eyes I’ll awaken what’s asleep in your eyes It may take a kiss or two Through all of my life Summer, Winter, Spring, and Fall of my life All I ever will recall of my life Is all of my life with you
I was texting with a friend, who has been a friend for many years, one I don’t get to see near as often as my ideal world would be, but one whom at the same time I have shared near everything with, been to hell and back with, they saw my best and my worst, still at the end of it all I feel we just grow closer. I am sure many out there reading this, esp us girls will know this exact feeling. Someone I have known and shared all this with but still get that school kid first crush sickness and butterflies feeling in the bottom of my stomach when I know our paths will cross or a phone call will take place. I would not trade that feeling for anything. I once fear after a few to many drinks I confessed to a mutual friend just how much I felt for this person the sort of I would walk over broken glass on fire in bare feet to see them kinda I’m that in love confession. You know what I never woke up the next day sober thinking, what have I done. I feel happy the info was out in the world. I think several people know anyway. Problem is It would never work, its not unrequited love, its just a different kind of love I guess, and also I would never wish to risk the brilliant times we have, memories of the past and memories to be made in the future. After I had confessed this feeling of true love to the other party, it oddly seemed to calm my feelings down. However I still feel sick when we are due to meet or talk, I still would walk over broken glass but in the end is that not what true friends do for one and other?
I am starting to work out that I need to get my savings/budget sorted asap for a decent pressure cushion for my wheelchair. (fingers crossed it will be ready in 3 weeks). I am amazed and shocked at the price of these cushions. I mean it seems I am going to have to spend just under £500. For a cushion that seems just crazy, at the same time if it stops the pressure sores forming then I guess it will be worth every penny. You can just have no idea on this issue till you get landed or stuck (literally) in this situation. Who knew a pressure sure could start within the day and getting rid of them is much much harder and much much longer a process! I think at the moment a Vicair is winning, I think the Vicair Vector. though it seems the more you read about cushions and peoples reviews and things you can change your mind 100 times. Of course all of it is very much down to the individual. I am also keen on the Jay brand either a J2 or J Active and then there is the bulk standard old Roho brand which seems a lot harder to buy in the UK than the USA. Of course add to this that my new chair and cushion needs is 16x18 and I am told I have a long theigh bone hence 18” seat length, so this seems to be finding one to order at underwear under at least £300 near impossible, though if you read this and find, see or know something I don’t then please do let me know!! Hey if I win the lottery I can go for the new http://www.easecushion.com/findings.htm at over £1500 crazy!
Right enough talk about cushions and pressure sores, issues etc and as I can not feel my butt so have no idea if its sore but as I have been on it all day, have not been good at remembering the hourly weight shift and am just sitting on a crap bit of foam I should get my 30 min evening physio in and then get myself into bed and a different pressure position.
I am going to the Naidex South show at the Excel in London on either the 29th or 30th so maybe they will have some cushions to test out there before I part with my ££.